i've been such a bum these days, it feels so good. like, i wanted to post a long entry, but i'm too lazy to type cause i would have to move my fingers. hahahaha.

but being a bum does not equal to being useless. too many things to look forward to in my life. there's always something(s) to pick you up when you're down in the abyss!

90% of australians in bali are douchebags. fuck australia.

Finally about to leave for bali in a few hours. Excitement building up every minute. See you in 9 days!!!

Oh, and if you wanna read abt the bali adventures, lemme know and I'll pass you the url!

Peace!

I've been waiting here at ICA since 1pm. Its now past 430pm.

ICA BLOWS.

sometimes i wonder what i would do if i earn lots of money on a regular basis. i'll be able to pursue all my dreams of travelling, latest gadgets, car, clothes, maybe even rent a place! nevertheless, i have a feeling that i still wont be happy, maybe because i might yearn for more things, or more money, or something. i dont know.

so do i still wish i had more money? hell yeah.

FINALLY. Presenters Presented is OVER. I predicted it to be tiring and stressful and I was right. It didnt help that I played soccer the night before at ngee ann poly, went to jurong east to collect the A1 posters (which i think were deemed useless) and slept at almost 2am. by the end of the event my legs were literally shaking from fatigue.

but on a brighter note, had a good free dinner and good laughs, got onto a joyride around singapore before ending up outside butter fac to take a cab home with shawno. haha.

i really wanna just stay home this weekend and relax, but i highly doubt it since brice has a car for the weekend. but i shall definitely try to stay home as much as i can to watch my new means of enjoyment and laughs: the big bang theory!

our whole universe was in a hot dense state
then nearly fourteen billion years ago expansion started
WAIT
the earth began to cool
the autotrophs began to drool
neanderthals developed tools
we built a wall
WE BUILT A PYRAMID
maths science history
unraveling the mystery
it all started with the BIG BANG!

My attempts to not think are failing miserably. I'm facing a tough decision that creeps up on me everytime I'm given space to myself. I know I have to make it sooner or later, and despite later being my resort in the end, I need to make this decision soon, before it develops into a disaster. The one thing that holds me back is the thought of "is it even worth trying?". Another thing that bothers me about this situation is it seems no matter how many people try and want to help, I find their words utterly useless. Mehhhh.

Glory glory man united! United till I die!

Watched Bullet In A Bible DVD today. Oh man I can't wait for 14 January. It is gonna be sooooooooooo awesome.

Finished booking flight tickets to a 10 day trip to bali in mid-November. I really wanna be all excited about it and all, and to a certain extent I am, but financial woes throws shit into my head. Hopefully I don't die from a terrorist attack.

if my life was written in songs, they will sound exactly like rise against.

up ahead there was a curve approaching, she made no indications of slowing.

green day. singapore indoor stadium. jan 14. go.

i woke up this morning with the WORST shoulder ache EVER. the kind where it aches from your neck down to your shoulder to your back, and it hurts to turn your head both ways. in fact, it was so bad that i impusively got a neck, shoulder and back massage at this massage haven at pasir ris mrt while on the way home this morning from a failed-video-shoot. SPONTANEOUS DECISIONS....SO WORTH IT!

last night was a good night. no, it was an EPIC night. yog rehearsals were fun. kris taught us some breakdancing moves, and i can safely say that i know how to do six-step, baby freeze, swipe and....wait for it....a HEADSTAND! BAM! after that headed down to east coast with adam to meet shawn and christian at...OKTOBERFEST! despite the awesomeness of timbre's pizza, i'm sad to say i still prefer sarpinos. good stuff!

now, i'm gonna make someone's day, hopefully, then sleep.

omgggggggg. i have approximately 12 working days till i ORD.

what my ideal day for today would be:

1. go for a good long refreshing rejuvenating swim.
2. have a nice hot lunch at home with the family.
3. meet up with old and new and good friends and chill.
4. watch inglourious basterds!
5. have a nice juicy think medium rare steak for dinner.
6. head over to a bar and watch the chelsea liverpool game over beers and deep dried finger foods.
7. sleep.

out of all these, i'll only be doing number 7. DOH!

We all carry these things, inside where no one else can see. They hold us down like anchors, as we drown into the sea. I look up to the sky, there maybe nothing there to see. But if I don't believe in him, why would he believe in me?

Repent, repent, these secrets will kill us,so get on your knees and pray for forgiveness.

If this works, it would be legen-wait for it-DARY! Blogging through BB FTW!

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i dream of the day i get to play this game, and i dread that i'll never be able to parkour again. its not fair.

i've got my license.

i've done my SATs.

i'm finally finishing junior hockey mens world cup this saturday, even though its been fun.

i'm getting off from camp from 20th June to 7th July due to AYG, which is going to be a blast because i'm doing football presentation (and mark hinted that i'll be hosting for finals!) and i get so much more time to spend with claire.

life is good for this period, and i'm utterly relieved.

i'm SICK!

urgh.

i feel swamped!

i have many exciting things lined up for me in the next month or so, and as much as i want to get through to my birthday quickly, i also want to just slowly glide through the coming weeks.

first up, SATs Subject Tests! I just found out that you can sit for a test that you haven't registered for and pay later. I probably won't understand anything on the French test but I'll definitely look through it. I'm really scared that I screw up my Math Level 2 tests, and I really wish I had taken them after my A Levels. It would have been a breeze!!

I've also got my driving test to "look forward" to. Honestly, I am DREADING it. As much as I feel confident driving a manual car, I'm scared shitless of the stupid immediate failures like stopping before the white line. All it takes is ONE mistake know! But never mind, I shall try my best, cause I only want to do this once and for all. I'll probably beat someone up if I fail. Haha.

Then there's hosting and announcing for Junior Hockey World Cup and football for Asian Youth Games! Thank god by then I would have finished my SATs and driving. I'm sure its going to be a blast. Mark Richmond is an amazing sports presenter coach. I learn something new today thats so cool I'll share it.

Say this REAL fast: From the top of the thumb to the tip of the tongue!

Apparently, it will really help you with your pronunciations of "th-" and "t-", and I really think it'll work! Will practise that phrase everyday!

Also, I want to spend as much time as I can with my one and only, and there are many exciting things to look forward to in that!

Oh, and there's also my army boss who treats me and Charles as robots who want nothing more but to work work work work work.

Monday's my doctor's appointment too, so I'll finally find out what's wrong with my knee, if there's anything wrong. Argh!

Okay contrary to the energy given out in this post, I'm DEAD tired. Played L4D with Claire Gavin and Shawn O (finally!) till late and had supper till even later. I'm gonna fall sick, especially with all the stuff I have ahead of me. Woohoo MC MC!

i loathe the way public hospitals are run, and i despise the way the doctors in them treat you. my past few experiences, all i see of them are ignorant people with fat pockets who dont give two shits about whats wrong with you.

i think i might have re-injured my meniscus, cause my acl feels quite stable but my kneecap hurts like a bitch. when i re-injured it, i still had about 5 weeks to my next medical appt. i called up the hospital to see if i could change the appt to make it earlier, but i just wasted my handphone bill. so i thought that i'd just check it out at the accident and emergency at the same hospital to see if it was serious. after waiting god knows how long, the bitch doctor roughly handled my knee and just prescribed me painkillers and instructed me to wait for my appt. unsatisfied, i asked her if she knew what might be wrong and whether it was serious.

"oh dont worry its not life threatening."

WHAT THE FUCK SERIOUSLY.

despite the immense difference in medical knowledge between the two of us, i OBVIOUSLY know that a torn knee ligament or meniscus is NOT life threatening. COME ON. a torn knee ligament will not cause my heart to stop beating or poison my lungs or damage my brain. SERIOUSLY WTF.

so after agonizingly going through 4 weeks with a painful knee (further adding the pounds due to the lack of any cardio whatsoever), i finally get to my appt.

BUT.

i have to wait for an mri scan, which will be in a month. and a month AFTER the scan, i will then meet my doctor who will HOPEFULLY know why my knee hurts and will then give me my options. meanwhile, all i can do is physio strengthening. so after waiting a month, i gotta wait another 2 months before i find out whats wrong with me. and all this time i'm getting fatter and fatter and i have a feeling i will be very very very far from my new years resolutions.

PUTAIN DE MERDE!

for fucks sake, not everything is about money.